I don't know what's wrong with me but I need to get a grip of myself! Just within a few hours, my world seems to be crumbling before me. It's not that I never faced such dillema before, but I never expected for this to happen once more.
My arms are trembling non-stop and there's just a sense of worry that I haven't felt in ages. I don't know. It feels so bad! I really don't know what to do. I'm exhausted but I can't sleep as well. I'm really trying hard to hold on to the tears but I really do not know how long more could I stand it. (It's been a while since I'm so 'emo')
B, please tell me what is going on? Don't shatter my world again. I'm begging of you this time.
Sobz!
Thursday, March 6, 2008
It's been ages since I updated my blog. Mainly is because I'm busy with finding self.. getting something called LIFE. Going to Jay's concert, Genting trip, late nights in Global (really enjoyed myself! Thanks u guys! Uncle, VK, Jen, Baby, Mike, TK, Jaryl, Loon, KC...).. Really gonna miss it. But I guess it's really time to put down all those enjoying part and start being more serious in doing things. Too much time has been wasted over these past few weeks. At least my 3 month break might help me get something I feel really meaningful.
Today, it's the 6th of March, my final Paper for my finals of this semester before my long break. After this, it's time to seriously clear my junk @ home and work. Come back to think, eventhough I may seem to be happy, am I really happy? I start to ponder... When hanging out at mamak with friends, cc with friends, I may laugh, I may go wacky.. but this is just on the surface.. deep down, there is hurt, there is loneliness, there is pain... Time to leave all these behind and seek my true happiness.
I once lost something very precious to me. I thought I could make it true.. But I realized.. It was all LIES! I've been lying to myself over the past month! Now I found that one thing I really care about, I vow never again will I let it go again.. You wanna know what is it? It's my BABY! (Duh! Not pregnant that type of baby if you think that way! Go Back to school if you think that way! My site is rates S! Read the side panel!)
People see me like so great, so fine.. It's all crap! I don't feel happy like that! Time to change! Time to be myself once more!
I'm not sure when will I update again, but I promise a better update later.
So long for now! Wish me luck for my finals & interview! ;)
p/s: Updated my song..
the voice within - christina aguilera (same title as my blog)
reflection - christina (again!) (Kinda explain how I'm feeling.. just change the word girl to guy!!! :P)
Today, it's the 6th of March, my final Paper for my finals of this semester before my long break. After this, it's time to seriously clear my junk @ home and work. Come back to think, eventhough I may seem to be happy, am I really happy? I start to ponder... When hanging out at mamak with friends, cc with friends, I may laugh, I may go wacky.. but this is just on the surface.. deep down, there is hurt, there is loneliness, there is pain... Time to leave all these behind and seek my true happiness.
I once lost something very precious to me. I thought I could make it true.. But I realized.. It was all LIES! I've been lying to myself over the past month! Now I found that one thing I really care about, I vow never again will I let it go again.. You wanna know what is it? It's my BABY! (Duh! Not pregnant that type of baby if you think that way! Go Back to school if you think that way! My site is rates S! Read the side panel!)
People see me like so great, so fine.. It's all crap! I don't feel happy like that! Time to change! Time to be myself once more!
I'm not sure when will I update again, but I promise a better update later.
So long for now! Wish me luck for my finals & interview! ;)
p/s: Updated my song..
the voice within - christina aguilera (same title as my blog)
reflection - christina (again!) (Kinda explain how I'm feeling.. just change the word girl to guy!!! :P)
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