Time... It waits for no one...As so it is told...As I look back, I come to realize. Gosh.. I've wasted so many years of my life away. At this point, comes an awakening. A new determination. For once in my life, I want to do good. I want to be a good student, a good son. Many plans I have laid for the next few months..
First off, I just bought 1 pack of ciggy (As of 8
th Sept 2008). This will be my last pack and I'm gonna go through cold turkey treatment. Perhaps I'll buy more chewing gum or something. This habit has been following me for far too long and I'm really determined to quit
FOR GOOD! I know I've mentioned about quitting like a million times. But seriously, time to put an end to this. For my dear friends who are smoking, not asking you to quit but please, don;t persuade me to join you for a smoke. I totally hate peer pressure! Force me to smoke and you might as well be seeing me for the very last time... So if anyone seeing me smoking after these few days, please smack me or something...
Next, I realized I'm going through a lot of late nights. Time to put an end to these late nights. Hate to hear that a panda will appear in
Puchong @ the front page of all local newspapers. Time to get used to daylight than the moonlight. Means no more late night
mamak, late night CC , Pub+Club+Disco (except special occasions). I guess I should try to be back by 8pm every night. Also to avoid my mom from worrying that I may be dead out in the streets.
For this semester, My classes are only from Monday to Wednesday (Damn
sucky timetable!). Thank goodness no classes on Fridays. At least I can work til end of this year. 1 way or another, I plan to get my license, a bike (By November hopefully) within this year if time permits from my paycheck. Hopefully everything goes well with my job. Anyone wanna buy
iPod? Please find me!
Now I'm already into my 3rd semester.
Geez! And to think that it is still only June! 3 more months and it'll be the end of my 1st year! AT LAST! HOORAY! For year 2 semester 1, I plan to take up more subjects and occupy more of my time in the library. I want to graduate faster (My mom hopes so as well). I'm no longer young. 1 more month to adulthood (Though I know I age before my time -good thing? bad thing?). Few more years and my mom is gonna retire and I'll have to be the backbone of this 2 member family. I'm the only son, who else can bear this burden but me. Time to be a good boy. Graduate faster and start finding a decent job and stop letting my mom worry so much. At times she nags, at times she really gets on my nerves. But in the end, it's love. She showered me with unconditional love trying her best to protect me from harms way for so long but stupid me, have been pushing her away, not listening to her advise. Keep arguing with her. Walked out on her so many times. I'm really was too stupid. Sorry mom! I'm very sorry! I promise to be a good son from now on. You wait and see. December will be the last month I'll be working and then time to start taking up life as a nerd (Not completely nerdy but be more attached to my studies).
Pray hard this all succeeds.
Of all the things I plan, there is 1 thing I'm never gonna quit. My passion for tattoos. Doing tattoos is not something for the impulsive. If you are not sure about doing it, don't take the risk or else you'll regret it for the rest of your life. Even though there is laser removal now available and perhaps there will be cheaper alternatives in the future as technology advances, I am very sure that I won't be taking it off me. My passion for tattoos especially
Thai Yant is undying. So far, 1 have only 2 and 1 custom made tattoo (which I'm planning to 'beautify? modify? what word should I put? before 2009) By end of this year, perhaps 1 more tattoo as well on my back once more. I'm not crazy (For those who think it's insane doing it). I don't do to show people what I have but for myself. If you see me often, you can realize that if I don't show you, you'll never know unlike some idiots who purposely do it at the most obvious places so scared people can;t see it. Shame on you guys! Especially those who do Thai
Yant at the most obvious places. It's for religious purposes and protection! Not to show off you are a gangster or whatever! Tattoos in the past were done mostly by gangsters and stuff but now, it's either art or religious purposes or passion! So all those peeps out there who wanna show off, think twice.
You're not cool, you're an idiot!9
th September already, and to think I was writing this on the 8
th....
*wake me up when September ends -
greenday plays in the background*
enough of the
emo emo stuff now down to what I was suppose to say in the few weeks I never updated...
Lunar 7th MonthUp to today, I still don't really understand the fuss about the 7
th month. What's the big deal people? The so called hungry ghost festival seems like makes a person be more cautious about the surrounding, be more afraid of the dark. Be afraid you meet 'friends' we don;t hope we will meet. Frankly speaking, what's there afraid of this particular month? Why only burn hell notes and make offerings only that particular month?
The way I see it, those hell notes and hiring those Taoist monks for rituals all is just a all for them to earn extra income. The main objective I feel is just to remember the dead and spend more time with the living while they are still around. Not to deny the existence of ghost but they are around anytime and anywhere and it's only us who do not acknowledge their presence lingering among us. Why the fuck are people so afraid of ghost when humans are even more scary than those poor 'friends'? Is it because our knowledge about them is vague which makes it frightening? At least they don't back stab, con and do all the nasty things people do. GOSH! They're DEAD! Live with it! Don't just go home early when night falls cause you are afraid of them! Spend more time with your family and friends while you and they are around! Life's too short! Don't just go home early cause it's the so called HUNGRY GHOST FESTIVAL! Wanna see hungry ghost? Go any halal outlets at 7pm during the Ramadan time and you can see the actual
HUNGRY GHOST!
kanasai!
Budget 2009Whoa! Budget 2009 is way earlier than expected this year. Usually it's only during October you can hear the word Budget _____(The following year). How come it's held 2 months ahead this year? Is it because the federal government feels threatened by the opposition and at last no longer deaf to public woes? Concern about the public?
BULLSHIT! Cigarette price up, does it actually make a difference? Smokers will still smoke no matter how expensive it is. And to say it will reduce the amount of smokers,
KONONNYA! From what I see it, you bunch of morons are only inviting people to buy other brands which does not have the 'my' logo at the bottom. Want me to list out a few brands? FINE! Texas 5,
Promax,
Zon King, Lite Up and all those only available 'underground'. Hopefully by budget 2010, I hope to hear no 5% government tax at food outlets for a year or more. That will make everyone happy! At least instead of 10 sessions at BBQ plaza, I can afford to go an additional time! Even
McD and
KFC! What you readers think?
Avril Lavigne ConcertAvril had her concert on the 29
th & 30
th August. As I read the papers, what sickens me is some fucking political freaks were outside giving fliers condemning her saying her concert is too close to
merdeka and her music is bad influence.
WTF man! It's the BEST DAMN THING that can happen in
Bukit Jalil. I really understand something. Why even pull in religion into politics? Religion (except
agama sesat) is such a beautiful thing, the never ask you to harm another living being or do any bad. Why want to pull such lovely thing into politics? Is it because they are so desperate to win the hearts of the majority? If Malaysian as a Buddhist country or a Hindu country, will the use the name of Buddhism or Hinduism to start a political party as well? Well, you're not gaining my respect by doing so., makes me loath you even more. It's so pathetic, but what am I to say about it. I'm a small fry in a small pathetic place where is US dropped an atomic bomb over here instead of Hiroshima and Nagasaki, I might even cease to exist.
Back to the concert, I only came up with 2 conclusions:-
- They're just desperate for attention from the public and the media
- The LOVE Avril so much but can't afford to buy the tickets and too shy to admit they adore her and took chance to make fuss outside the stadium to hear her sing LIVE!
Agree?
Forever Love?
Last Thursday, I was on my way from Tesco Puchong to Kelana Jaya (My agent's office) to sign the monthly contract (I'm doing freelancing). It was a rainy day and I just wore kinda 'cincai' (T-Shirt, shorts, slippers) holding a pathetic 7-11 umbrella waiting for the bloody bus (Kaninia! Name called Rapid KL, it ain't that rapid! Is it because all those cb drivers are fasting and got no strength to step on the accellerator? Not fasting month also too slow. I guess they are just too underpaid to really bother how rapid they can go). The office was closing and I really have no patience waiting for these bloody public transport. Wish I had my bike. I don't mind being wet a bit. So I decided to take a cab. Normally, from my previous experience taking taxi, by meter, it cost only like 10 bucks but knowing Puchong area taxi drivers are fucking lazy and greedy, we normally pay double the amount. When I headed to the 1st taxi, that mother fucker dare to ask for 25. Kaninia chaucheebai! Means I have to actually pay 150% more. Who the heck will be that crazy? So, as how everyone else will respond, 1st thing I replied was 'GILAKAH?'. To make things worst, that mother fucker actually wanted to show how gangster-ish he is and looking for a fight. You're just a fucking taxi driver, drive your taxi like all other drivers do! Show what gangster. I really wanted to just punch him right in the nose already but then my phone rang (Once I get my bike, I'm sure gonna throw a brick and smash his windscreen! PUKIMAK PUNYA DREBAR INDIA!). Thinking that my company was calling to faster come sign the contract, I just picked up and it was from my childhood friend (Let's just call her Ms. K). Apparently she was feeling down because of her relationship problem. She was at Brickfields and I thought I might as well just go after I buka puasa with my ex-colleague who works nearby KJ. I didn't eat the whole day except smoke a few cigarettes, the incident with that fucker plus the weather was not really helping with my mood. I reached Brickfields finally at about 9 something. Somehow, my pet-sister Emily also turned up (thank goodness she drives). We went out to the 24 hours McD at Kuchai as apparently both of them also haven't 'buka-puasa'. And since the night was young, we decided to go to the cyber cafe near my place just to past time. It was about 12 something when I felt something wasn't right when Ms. K went to the toilet for more than 10 minutes and still not out. I just went there to check on her and she was practically on the phone crying, weeping, sobbing or whatever word you can put it into. None of the other customers dare to go there to even smoke (The toilet was at a small smoking area when the grill is pulled down after midnight). Emily eventually manage to calm her after her conversation with her BF (Let's call him Mr. W) but that was something we regretted. Ms. K said she wanted to rush down to Pudu to see Mr. W. It was already 2 something by then and we were like 'Are you nuts?'. Emily asked her to just sleepover at her place and find him the next day but Ms. K just insisted. Even if Emily didn't fetch her, she would eventually take a cab there by hook or by crook. We had no choice. So much for sleeping early for work the next day! Mr. W seemed really different from what I know him to be. BTW, Mr. W and Ms. K have been together for more than 2 years now. Ms. K seemed to be doing the talking as me and Emily were just eating our supper and spectating 'the talk' (feel like lamp post ler!). Both of them decided to take a stroll leaving me and Emily stranded at the mamak until we decided to go to the nearby cyber cafe rather than wait like 'dungu' there (Luckily!). By the time they settled, it was already 5 something. I was hoping to go back sleep but it was Emily's turn to be indulge in her TVXQ forum until her afterwards costed me and additional 3 hours of sitting down and facing the PC making it a total of almost 5 hours. 8am @ Pudu seeing the warm morning sun and I am like a zombie. Reached Puchong at about 9 thanks to the jam and Emily said she wanted to have breakfast. By the time I reached home, It was already 10am! Kanasai! 2 hours before I start work. Managed to nap for only 1 hour and getting ready to work. Anyway, Ms. K and Mr. W and still have not fully resolved their issue and until now, is it 3rd party, peer pressure, family pressure, change of heart, we still do not know. But thinking back, I was in such situation before. Good riddance she's gone. At least more Starbucks, Neway, BBQ Plaza after she left and happy about it right now. Back to these 2 now, just hopefully both won't so sohai like me in the past. All still so young, might as well enjoy life while we can.
My god, just updating this blog took me more than 4 hours. Perhaps I should be updating more often instead of keeping it to 1 lump sum. Anyway, sorry for not putting any pictures because I haven't taken any nice pictures. Hopefully if I can afford a simple camera, I'll upload. For now, bear with the words.
Yours faithfully,
Jyn ^^
