New Year And New Beginnings!!!

Gosh, how time flies, I've wasted yet another year... sobs sobs :'-( Another year burned with many unfulfiled dreams. Anyway, there were some sweet moments this year as well...

Here's a little recap of the my view of 2007...

The amazing slanting cup at 1st World Cafe, Genting

My roommate's (at Genting, Prakash) brother Hari did this trick for us right in front of our eyes with just a little help of salt. He even did the slanting trick with a jug of water but that image was never manage to be taken.

Happy moments at Safari Disco, Genting.

Just 1 of the many photos of the happy times at Safari. The happiest was when my baby was up. Gosh, she can drink more beer than me! Betcha she'll lose to me in whisky!!! Hell Yeah!!!

(Left - My Baby Jie and Right - my good friend Natasha)

The Loving Couple Visiting Me Up At Genting

Well, they 2 came up to genting and also to collect present from me. Well, we had a great feast thanks to the stupid doctors MC which I had to wait for 4 hours. BTW, The meal, BMW (Burned My Wallet!)

(Left - Wilson, Right - Kinki (B'day Gal)

Goodbye Kok, see you again in Malaysia!

One of my colleagues at AVRD, real happy go lucky guy. The last picture of him taken at Genting before his departure for Macau!

February 14, 2007

The days as customer service assistant at AVRD, who says we can't eat cake while talking to angry customers?

Beautiful Awana Kijal

I had to sacrifice going to the Micheal learns To Rock Concert because this trip was made compulsary by the stupid stingy Assistant Vice President. What I lost in concert, I gained in relaxation.

Happy moments with my baby!

The happiest moment is getting to see my baby after a hard days work. Baby, I love you so so much!

There are in fact many many other pics and memories but that will be just too too long to put it in...

Some others are like:-

1. My 1st time going to Ipoh and eating the taugeh and chicken




2. 1st time staying so long and Genting and get to stay at Awana with the nice Jacuzzi




3. 1st time jogging from Awana Genting to Genting View Resort and U-turn to Gohtong Jaya




4. 1st time get scolding so much for the customers for the sales personnel's wrong doing




5. 1st time borrowing from Ah Long (That time really sucked!)




6. Spending so many sweet moments with my baby (I miss you even by thinking of it)




7. Hanging out with my good friends




8. Playing midnight basketball with the Puchong gang (you guys ROCK!!!!)\




9. Entering college at last!




10. oh my god.. this list can go on for ages!!! I'll just stop here... for those things I never mention, please don't put it in heart. You know and I know we had fun and happy times (winks! winks!)

Anyhow, that is 2007! We as humans can't always expect the past and just let time stop there. Times change and people change. Digi also changed, so time for me to change to...Here's my goal for 2008!

The list is as goes...........

1. Quit smoking officially on the 1st of March!
   (It will be hard to me but i have to put and end as my stamina is getting real bad! Whoever who see me touch another stick after this date, just grab that fag and gimme a real tight slap will you? I won't blame you, it's for my own good!)
   Please read the fine prints!
   bye bye fags!




2. Get my driving license by end of the year!
   As time goes by, I realize I'm 21 next year. I need a license! I need a license!
   
I need a car! I need a car!



3. Sleep earlier
   My sleeping habits recently got the best of me. I feel tired but yet I have no will to sleep. Time to change that! *(Unless there are exceptions!)

Sleep! Sleep! Sleep!

Man am I tired and my mind is not working right now. Guess The list stops here...

Anyway,

GOODBYE 2007 and WELCOME 2008!

Pray hard 2008 will be a good year for me and all around me!

Jyn Flames 4ever!!!

Of GFs and Ex-Crushes

I was awakend by noisy stupid mono toned cellphone at 3 in the morning and when I get up to pick up the phone, what do I see? 2 damn miss calls. It's really kind of frustrating at times, I'm getting old and when I really want to get some rest, strangely there are many hindrances (ya! I'm old already, years ago at this time perhaps I'll be hanging out at the mamak with some friends after clubbing or feng tau!)

Well see see my GF is being frustrated with me writing a testimonial in friendster for my ex-crush / a close friend (Well, she is close but as friends, besides, crush on her was like so many years ago!) Well, seeing my background, it really has been easier for me to mix with girls compared to guys (though I do have some close guy friends as well).

The big differences, a big majority of guys likes football all just sports or PC and stuff like that which is so not me also!

Anyways, why can she just let this old man 'rest in peace'?

Gosh, if only for a week no arguments or problems don't happen in the middle of the night. I'll be so so thankful!

P/S: To Baby Jie, I know who i love kay, don't worry! My heart is not like the logo on the transformers toys in the past where they keep changing colour, if you know what I mean!

So, since I'm up, time to have an early breakfast.

Ciaoz!

Destruction...

I wonder, why am I here in this world? It makes no difference even if I'm gone. I expect no one to even shed a tear for me if I'm gone.

I feel like I'm going crazy with this cold war. The cold war between me and my mom. That's what I'm saying. She sees her way as only the best and won't even accept my thoughts and feeling? Why is this so? All religion talk bout filial piety (not kuih paitee mind you!) but isn't there something where they also talk about children cannot choose their parents and same goes the other way round? It's not like I just want to play all day and ignore my studies and stuff. I totally understand that when there's time for work and for play.

Even though this family can be said to be broken many years ago, why must I go through all this? I know there are many families having similar problems, but how come their parents are not so calculative? Everything I do, my mom will always be calculating with me. I already said I'll study, why can't she just trust me. Why the need to call my college up and check on me? Why want my college to call her everytime I'm absent? Does she know how humiliating it is or not? How'd it feel like if I call her boss and her HR department to check on her to see if she left early, apply for leave or late for work?

Speaking of which, she goes to the Buddhist temple to listen to talks and this and that, always helping out in the temple. It's not to say bad, but it really give me the feeling that she cares more of her Sunday school and temple that this house! (Seriously!) Buddhist? I say bullsh*t! If she ever say she is trying to be a good Buddhist, someone just please help me slap her in the face. There's one word I learned about from the temple and it's called Kalyana Mitra, it's a Pali word for spiritual friend. I used to believe I can find a kalyana mitra in temple until I realize that those in the temple are just far worse that those people we call 'pai kia'. Those in the temple are just so power hungry and can backstab, boot licking and do many other things to attain their goals. Those 'pai kia' outside are more human than those I've seen in the temple. Therefore, there tattoo on my arm is born. It's in old chinese writing called 'yi' (setiakawan). Which mean faithful to friends and not abandoning them when a problem occurs.

She has no right to talk bad about my best buddies (my kalyana mitra). Even though we smoke, we drink and wasting our lives away playing midnight basketball, the give me the feeling of a family I never had! The brotherhood! We laugh together! We cried together! We faced the most challenging things together! What feeling has my mom gave me? She make me feel myself so worthless, nothing but piece of junk ready to be thrown away. She cause me to hate and bring so much destruction and despair.

If she actually has a chance to read this blog, all I want to say is 'Mom, I love you but please understand me and believe and accept what I'm doing!'. I am Jyn, therefore there's no comparison between me and anyone. I may not be the smartest, I may not be the most athletic, I may not be the the best in anything. But I am ME! I have my dreams, I have my visions, I have my goals for I am Jyn!

Lost~~

There are times when we actually feel quite lost. Not knowing what is the next step... Not knowing what to do... How sickening can that be?

Sometimes, I try my best to be as good as I can but how come things just get so screwed up? I'm actually having cold war with my mom, my relationship with my Gf is just like crap. my wallet is hyper light, actually can say empty. Gosh. I wish this week just pass fater.

Christmas is coming but I really just can't find the mood. 1 good thing is now I've at least found back some good memories (right doll face?). At least this year I'll get to sell confetti than to waste money buying like the other years.

Anyway, this is just my 1st blog after stopping to blog in Friendster for quite some time. So sorry if my post is kind of messy now. I promise there will be futher improvements (maybe!?).

Anyways, it's hyper early in the morning & gotta take some rest... ciaoz